Mar 25, 2009

Ambiguity

I kept asking myself how many countless ordeals that a man should go through before finally reaching a point of but- a- transitory emotion.

Humans have invented a thousand words to describe emotions. Some descriptions are vivid enough to even define the transition of the intensity of an emotion. Vile, disgust, abomination; or anger, hatred, loathe, scorn; love, adoration, fondness; or even jealous and resentful. But still there are emotions even so sharp and intense that have no description—a comparison to tangibility is redemption.

In one palette, from the center to edges is the contrasting hue in unison, spelling the same emotion, in whatever emotion it is, the feelings being not only the reversal or absence of the contrasting emotions. For example, happiness does not always applied to be the absence of sorrow or pain and it does not amount to an emotion of extreme or intense joy. Sometimes happiness and other conditions is as vague as a neutral expression of emotion, an invariable feeling that at a certain point you are not extremely happy but just plain happy even without any reason or logic for the emotion.

This is not a philosophical argument. I only wanted to ascertain that there are just moments that emotions and feelings have no rationality. I have always believed that maybe we ought not to rationalize too much on fleeting emotions. This is not a battle on the superiority of the mind and heart over such human conditions. Contentment from eating ice cream in a very humid day should not undergo any further comprehension. Because what else can you account for eating an ice cream when you feel like eating an ice cream. Life is as uncomplicated as the process of breathing (disregarding its biochemical properties); that when you lose air, you take some. That in certain emotions, one should not over think too much, it is enough to be grateful at once for the positivity of happiness, love and or fulfillment and rectify any negative emotions, especially if involved another person.

But in instances wherein another person is involved within the intricateness of an emotion, the emotion itself is subdued by rationalization and comprehension. In this case, breathing is losing air if the other person needs some. It is nothing but sacrificial to undergo the torment of the analysis. It could take hours, days, years to think over feelings of bitterness, desperation and forlorn. And in desperation, even in years of analysis you found no logical causation. It is a human requisite to identify and isolate the reasons for the “feelings” if and only if it is interpersonal. After all limits and boundaries is the stalemate of any emotion.

You can not eat an ice cream even if you feel like eating an ice cream if eating it will hurt another person.

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