April 15, 2008
Trailing ahead ablaze in a path
A yearning to feel, a yearning to love
But in my heart filled with conceit and wrath
I ran away, as swift as the light’s hub
I lost the grip to care, the desire to feel and need
I dance in the rhythm of chaos and intuition for long
As I am staring in your eyes, can’t you see in you I heed?
In silence, I am bleeding and screaming with nothing. I am alone.
Words welled up inside; words all left unsaid.
Searching and fleeting, asking and failing
In weakness, in pretends with no one but dead
This heart is empty, I am grieving, and I am ailing.
I left, I ran away once more
Then the words are no longer kept away
Finally this mouth has spoken, innocence no longer restored
This self, this fire that vanished and truth in bare has laid
Wings have flown softly and blindly in depth
Clipped, tripped, stumbled and humbled
Surrounded, locked in golden chains and in noise and deaf
“I love you” that was all I mumbled.
