I am writing again.
I write just to create a space in my brain where thoughts flow in and out without my permission.
I write again in search of that half that makes me whole.
I write to pen down the tulips and roses that fail to blossom in my spring time.
I write songs but the melody is out of tune. I write to feel how perfect a song is without listening to it. Cymbals, harp, triangle, electric guitar, piano and violin are all playing out of tune but somehow and somewhere in the chorus, they all blended, trying to give out a harmony for a song that feels… a song that cries.
I write because I feel.
I write when I cry.
I am writing because of you. I am writing because you give me the sole reason why I should not to.
I am writing now and I will be writing tomorrow. No more should I hide this pen or crumple this paper.
I write especially when I sing with Macy Gray. I write while she sings her bitterness in a man’s voice.
I write because I live and I live more when I write.
I babble when I write.
I write about everything and about everyone.
I write about you- how you hold me in your arms when I rant about my flabby stomach. I write about how you fix my hair or the zipper in my bag.
I write about them. Yes! Those friends who always make me laugh so loud in the middle of the streets or those who I rarely see but will always know how to make me scream in every falling star we see.
I write because I cannot speak out. I write because I choose not to speak out. I write because I can’t just tell everything to you.
I write because if I talk, I might hurt you.
I write because I find comfort in words. I find romance in the marriage of words and paper.
I write because I love how my right hand strokes the paper in every curve and lines I pen down.
I write because I love how my thumb flips the pages of my life.
I write because I don’t have the answers to all of our questions because if I do then I will just be blurting it out to you.
I write when I am hurting.
And I write because it perfectly describes my sanity ( and in this case, insanity!)
