People say that what you don’t know may harm you, but it is the other way around. It’s what you know that definitely damages or hurts you more. For example, you clumsily wounded yourself without even knowing it. In no way, you complained of pain since you never realized it was there from the very start. But the instance you became conscious of the wound, suddenly you grumble of stinging pain especially when the skin is still hanging onto the edges of the wound. Also, you demanded attention for yourself and it is funny how a small wound brings out the yearning in us. The worse scenario is that it leaves a hideous scar reminding you of your stupidity and ignorance.
Life is a lot like this. Love is CERTAINLY (in its superlative form) a lot like this. Sometimes, I find it advantageous (if we’re keeping a Pros and Cons List) not to know much about everything because truth really hurts. It’s like: when you caught someone you loved for years with somebody, or when this someone you trusted has lied to you BIG time, or when you believed that that somebody loved you but instead, your relationship, in his vantage point, only operated in pity.
Letting go is more painful when we still hang onto the edges of a destroyed relationship, same as the skin hanging onto the edges of the wound. Like a computer system or program files being infected, I think all we need is to reformat. However, unlike computer systems, it’s more unrealistically difficult to program ourselves into “auto-reformat” because it still demands an outside stimulus, aside from our own motivation, to control and initiate the process. We could not just push a button located anywhere in our psyche that says: “PUSH TO LET GO” or a button labeled: “PUSH IF YOU WANT LIFE TO RESTART.” Because if God creates in us buttons or prompts like these, then we all be dying ignorant of life’s sweetest emancipation.
I am no expert in love and more so in life. I’ve seen my friends go through this ordeal and I too experienced going through this process a couple of times, that’s why awareness comes from very difficult situations. But I do find this simple logic applicable in almost every mistakes and billowy faults I’ve done in the past.
It is innate in our humanness to deny the truth (the reason of our disappointments) and to pretend that what happened never existed. But I think; only the mature ones defy instead of deny. To defy is to challenge oneself to take the risks openly and daringly. However, compared to denying, defying to me is like rubbing salt to a fresh wound. It is strenuous to go through an unknown and new journey. One can never know if the err in this direction does not exist in the other direction. I can never say that mistakes committed here and hitherto will never be committed in the future. That’s why FAITH should be purchased with letting go. And eventually,
Everyone (in unison): Everything’s going to be alright.
