There's just too much in my mind right now, saturating my deepest ridges, brain furrows and inquisition. Blogging has never been a devoted routine, but now I realized the purpose it was made for. It was made to unburden those empty but heavy baggages in life for unlike Emperor Qin's belief, we are not allowed to bring all our treasures in the after life. So there's no point of building a temple and 8,000 Terra Cotta warriors to guard those crap. Not that I view those baggages as treasures.
Whoa! It has been a year since I had my last post. Much has changed since then. Admittingly, I no longer bear the same unwavering and optimistic views I have with bedside nursing. A ten day leave would do the redemption. Sorry jerry, I am going a complete 360 degrees from the things I said to you in our YM conversation regarding my confusion.
J: kasi kahit ganon yung situation, clear sa iyo yung value at essence ng pinag-aralan mo ng 4 na taon
I: kaya tinatry ko na hindi ganito... kasi nilalamon ako ng sariling sistema ng mundo
I: tulong na din na nasa pedia ako...
I: ....kaya nga gusto ko uli mag aral
J: bakit pala epi?maganda siya pero sa nakikita ko kasi, mas appropriate ang nursing sa iyo
yung insights mo malaki ang maitutulong para mabago ang nursing
J... i'm just looking at the future implications kung sakaling gawin mo nga yun at ipursue mo, malaki ang potential para mabago ang perspective sa nursing at sa magiging focus ng nursing education at practice
This conversation was just weeks old, and yet with a ten day leave, my thoughts are revolutionized, instead using these thoughts to revolutionize the distressing reputation of the Nursing profession. As what jerry said, I have or should I say "had" a deep insight with the reality of bedside nursing. It's not the skills involved, whether you are good in patient assessment and procedures, it is more of the "feeling" and "caring" which not all nurses possess. It's funny when nurses misuse and brag that nursing is a "caring" profession, when they don't care if their patients are experiencing some physical and intangible pain. When they too, are voraciosuly consumed by the brutality of our health system.I know nurses who are like that, in fact I am working with nurses like that. This is not my own way of boasting of my cleaner slate and I am, in some instances, like that.
What's more disgusting with this is that nursing has never been a selfish profession, not until now. Because of the nursing evolution nowadays, it added material gain to the realm of the profession. It's not about us in the spotlight. Its about those delicate hands being pricked with sharps, its about those surgical incisions being infected, its about those children missing the chance of a nurtured childhood and its about those parents who waited for a child for years that we hastily do not care for.
Whoa! It has been a year since I had my last post. Much has changed since then. Admittingly, I no longer bear the same unwavering and optimistic views I have with bedside nursing. A ten day leave would do the redemption. Sorry jerry, I am going a complete 360 degrees from the things I said to you in our YM conversation regarding my confusion.
J: kasi kahit ganon yung situation, clear sa iyo yung value at essence ng pinag-aralan mo ng 4 na taon
I: kaya tinatry ko na hindi ganito... kasi nilalamon ako ng sariling sistema ng mundo
I: tulong na din na nasa pedia ako...
I: ....kaya nga gusto ko uli mag aral
J: bakit pala epi?maganda siya pero sa nakikita ko kasi, mas appropriate ang nursing sa iyo
yung insights mo malaki ang maitutulong para mabago ang nursing
J... i'm just looking at the future implications kung sakaling gawin mo nga yun at ipursue mo, malaki ang potential para mabago ang perspective sa nursing at sa magiging focus ng nursing education at practice
This conversation was just weeks old, and yet with a ten day leave, my thoughts are revolutionized, instead using these thoughts to revolutionize the distressing reputation of the Nursing profession. As what jerry said, I have or should I say "had" a deep insight with the reality of bedside nursing. It's not the skills involved, whether you are good in patient assessment and procedures, it is more of the "feeling" and "caring" which not all nurses possess. It's funny when nurses misuse and brag that nursing is a "caring" profession, when they don't care if their patients are experiencing some physical and intangible pain. When they too, are voraciosuly consumed by the brutality of our health system.I know nurses who are like that, in fact I am working with nurses like that. This is not my own way of boasting of my cleaner slate and I am, in some instances, like that.
What's more disgusting with this is that nursing has never been a selfish profession, not until now. Because of the nursing evolution nowadays, it added material gain to the realm of the profession. It's not about us in the spotlight. Its about those delicate hands being pricked with sharps, its about those surgical incisions being infected, its about those children missing the chance of a nurtured childhood and its about those parents who waited for a child for years that we hastily do not care for.
Kenneth and Marianne. It seems that they are having the time of their lives.
Call me apathetic, but honestly, I can no longer fight for these ideations. I allowed myself to be consumed because it's helpless, especially when you are working in an area where everyone has different and opposing views. I used to be that "1 against the 100" and now I can no longer change the disturbing practice in our ward. Probably in December, I will tender my resignation. THIS IS MY FIRST DISCOVERY.
