There are people we hope who could stay with us for long.
But why do we consciously or unconsciously push other people away? Why do we gamble on the wrong choices that we allow the things we prayed for to die slowly ? These things are uncontrollable, inevitable in that sense.
More often than not, life forces us to take risks...life drags us to a point of vulnerability that exposes our weaknesses. We run away to a tiny, dark self-indulging corner. This vulnerability makes us run away from the person we treasure most, and then eventually leave that person more confused, alone and hurting.
In that corner, we believe that we are only humans...that we are innately capable to offend, disappoint and hurt other people. We created our own monsters. We are voraciously consumed by this belief that make us doubt whether or not we deserve that person.
We run away from them... We push them away...We become too hard on ourselves and we thought that we could only hurt them more, so we block them from reaching out to us. If only life is uncomplicated, if only love ( for that instance) is uncomplicated. We thought that the only solution to this predicament is to create a wall, certain boundaries that would only keep them out temporarily. But what if, they are not there to stay for long? What if they too can get tired of waiting for us to break down that wall. What if love is not enough?
Start small... Let them know that you are willing to break the enormous barrier between you. If you know that your actions will only hurt them, then don't do it. We are not an overnight process, we are not microwavable.It takes a considerable amount of time. If the better and revised version of us is ready to love again then let's just hope they are still here...waiting...
