I think this is the right time for us to talk about "this" . I can't think of other ways to let you know of my side of the story, except through this, where there is no scrutiny from people who make the matter worse. I am so sorry for making your life worse than hell. You don't deserve the way I have treated you for the past months. I am so sorry for not giving you the chance to prove yourself; so sorry too for not giving myself the chance to know you more. You have nothing to prove to me because you have proven more than what I have expected from you. The last time I had hurt you, honestly, I felt terrible about it. I don't care of what other people would think about it and my injustices, scowling glares and pretenses. I have no intention of bringing you down, I just want you to stand on your own feet and be accountable of your actions.You are accountable to our patients as I am accountable to you.People would think that I am bringing you down, sometimes with the way I came to you,it felt like I was actually tearing you down. But, I only intended to force you out of your cocoon and "be a butterfly".
The reason why I am writing to you publicly is for people to know that you have my respect and that you have grown tremendously in your bedside care. Maybe you have felt that I am unfair to you since my treatment to you is incommensurable to some of your friends. I am so sorry. And what happened last night was not some weird "small talk". For me, it was an answer to my prayers.
See you around.
